I keep absorbing things.
Thoughts, ideas, media, culture, it all goes in, but it rarely ever comes back out.
This really needs to change. I’m not sure I can justify taking so much in without creating something as a result.
For a long time, far too long, if I’m absolutely honest with myself, I’ve said that if only I actually lived up to my potential, I would be able to accomplish things. If only.
Such a sad excuse to not succeed.
I owe it to myself, to my friends, and to pretty much everyone that’s ever actually thought something of me, to start at least TRYING. Now this isn’t the first time I’ve said this. Or even the first time I’ve started trying. I always lose focus, however, like I did with this blog, although in this case it’s also because I was up to my nipples in exams and scrabbling for a blog topic made me felt guilty about spending time doing work that wasn’t exam-work.
But apparently I digress… Again. Quite prone to that, too.
For as long as I can keep it going, I’m going to attempt to Do Some Thingy Every Day. It may be a blogpost, it may be some code, it may even be a drawing or a short story or some attempt at personal improvement. I really don’t know. All I know is that I have the time, I have the inclination, and I need to stop Doing Nothing for the sake of Avoiding Failure. I’ll try do a roundup on the blog from time to time if I don’t do bloggable stuff, but for now, I’m just going to leave this here as a record of the goal, and see how I go. (..al. Dohohoho.)